I was so lovely back then.

Wow

Wow


Wednesday, 11 April 2012 
21:48


Holy fuck.
I'm in love, baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me...
Tho I know you can't hurt me, I'll be the one to break your heart, But til that happens, I'll love you forever.

Fail

Fail 


 Wednesday, 07 March 2012 
 13:57 


 A little girl smoked a cigarette in a dark corner of a dark street. 


...little did she know there was a police camera turned right in her direction.

Waffle and stuff

Waffle


Saturday, 03 March 2012
14:23


A big decision ahead, to eat or to smoke. I want both but... nah, just smoke. But little later, I haven't written in this blg for so long, I actually miss it. So... 

• My hair is pink at the moment, but it's wash-out dye, on Monday pink will be rarely seen and I'm happy. Pink doesn't fit me. 
• I've been playing Robot Unicorn Attack since last Friday almost everyday. The highscore is 48000+ so far. 
• Hamsters don't really fit me too. I miss having a rat. Rats are so much smarter and they are prettier. 

The rockclub party wasn't that awesome at all. My old schoolmate made me blow into this alcometer thingy  and I blew 1.2, so he said I have to go home. So I went outside, stayed there for 10 minutes, then went inside again, then he saw me and made me blow again, and then I blew 0.0 and I could stay at the party without hiding from him and I was happy.  Tho my crush wasn't there, and that made me sad. 
At 1 am I went to Jana's and fell asleep. 

What's up?

What's up?


Saturday, 26 February 2012
00:46


It's been a while since the last time I posted here something. Life's been okay so far. No, life, that really is not a challenge for you to make it otherwise. I kinda enjoy chillin' home alone, looking at my hamsters while they sleep, webcam whoring with a loooot of make-up and that kind of things... really interesting, you know. 

Amy & Mimi here.

Wait, gotta smoke, brb.

A lonely night

Alonelylonelylone


Monday, 6 February 2012
02:00


I've got no one to talk to so I'm trying to talk to my blog. My blog's always listening to me til I'm happy.
So, basically I've been half-dead last days. I've just been lying around and listening to music. Sad life.


Every since this began, I was blessed with a curse. Black hole sun, won't you come and take away the pain? Sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, I don't know why. And how do you expect me to sleep at night? What if I can't forget you, I'll burn your name into my throat, I'll be the fire that fill catch you. But if we'd cut out the bad, well.. then we'd had nothing left. I know that you know that I know that you know. I'm so happy cuz today I found my friends, they're in my head. Where you invest your love, you invest your life. Pick up the phone, I wanna talk, about my day... it really sucked. It's just one of those days when you don't wanna wake up, everything is fucked, everybody sucks.You're so full of shit, man, just go die.Who would wanna be such an asshole? My arm get cold in February air. Girls just want to have fun. And the girl that chase the rabbit drank the wine and took the pills has locked herself in limbo the see how it truly feels. Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair. I think we're alone now. I'm a cat. Where's the kid with the chemicals? You're my property. 

I think I saw you sleep, darling

It's him again

Sunday, 5 February 2012

13:22

Fuck, I fucking hate you for being such a cunt, you fucking cunt. I hate you.
I think I saw you in my sleep, darling. I think you in my dreams...
Yes, you fucking cunt. I wish I never met you. You looked like such a loser back then. Fuck, I fucking hate myself for asking for a contact. Fuck. I should just get you out of my head. Oh, and if you ever will start talking to me again I'll fucking stab you to death. Fucking... fuck. 
Why can't I forget you...


Wow, it's so lovely outside. I'm not sure if it's snowing... or the flakes are just really really small, but it's fucking GLITTERING!!!


Wow, I fucking hate it when I'm wearing a deep decolletage shirts without bra and then when I make a wrong move nipple pops out. Fuck, I really need to get this blog private.


Maria reminded me of these challenges again. But I'm sure I'll forget to do them daily so I'll answer all of these questions right now.





Are looks important in a relationship? - No.
Are relationships ever worth it? - Yes.
Are you a virgin? - No.
What's your favorite color? - Light-blue. 
Are you in a relationship? - No.
Are you in love? - Wouldn't say in love, I'm just not over him yet.
What's your favorite animal? - Lion.
Are you single this year? - Yes.
Can you commit to one person? - Not for more that one month.
Describe your crush. - Baby-blue eyes, dark brown hair, kinda fat. I don't actually know him well, we've met like 3 times in real life.
Describe your perfect mate. - Cat.
Do you believe in love at first sight? - No.
Do you ever want to get married? - No.
Do you forgive betrayal? - Yes.
Do you get jealous easily? - Yes.
Do you have a crush on anyone? - Yes.
Do you have any piercings? - Yes, tongue, one tunnel, and five in ears.
Do you have any tattoos? - Not yet.
Do you like kissing in public? - Yes but only in serious relationship.
Do you masturbate? - Mhmh.
Do you shave your neither regions? - Mhmh.
Do you shower every day? - Yes.
Do you think someone has feelings for you? - No. I'm almost sure.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? - No.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? - I'm sure I can not cheat, I'm just not sure if the relationship can last so long.
Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? - No.
Do you want to be in a relationship this year? - No.
Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? - No.
Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? - Yes.
Have you ever been cheated on? - Don't think so.
Have you ever cheated on someone? - Yes.
Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? - Make my nose smaller.
Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? - Yes.
Have you ever experienced unrequited love? - It always happens.
Have you ever had sex with a man? - A boy, yes.
Have you ever had sex with a woman? - No.
Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - Yes.
Have you ever liked one of your best friends? - No.
Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? - Not really.
Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? - Yes.
Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? - Always.
Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? - No. 
Have you had sex so far this year? - 01.01.2012 at 3 am. But it was considered as 31st dec. So no.
How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? - Infinitely.
How long was your longest relationship? - One month.
How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? - Five.
How many people did you kiss in 2011? - Seven.
How many times did you have sex last year? - Six.
How old are you? - 15.
If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? - "Aw, thanks."
If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? - Everything.
If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? - Never had a "true love".
Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? - No.
Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? - Yes. They were annoying.
Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? - No.
Is there someone you will never forget? - Don't think so.
Share a relationship story. - We fucked. We got to know each other names. We fucked once more. We started dating. We fucked much times. We broke up.
State 8 facts about your body: fat, ugly, fucking ugly, unattractive, fugly, small boobs, big ass, hairy.
Things you want to say to an ex: "I hate you."
What are five ways to win your heart? - There's  only one way. Love me.
What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? - If sex partners, then one year, if just kissing, then seven.
What is the first thing you notice in someone? - Eyes.
What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? - Talk about "this" in public.
What is your definition of “having sex”? - Having penis in vagina. Or in mouth or in butthole.
What is your definition of cheating? - Fucking/kissing/meeting someone behind your back.
What is your favourite foreplay routine? - I don't even need a foreplay.
What is your favourite foleplay? - I don't know, but kissing & fingering. Then kissing my nipples and fingering & then eating out.
What is your idea of the perfect date? - Badass hardcore sex.
What is your sexual orientation? - Bi.
What turns you off? - Bad smell and small dick.
What turns you on? - Green/grey eyes, romanticism and big dick.
What was your kinkiest wet dream? - The one I saw about this fucking cunt (there was actually two of them.  First one was when I saw him at a party and we started making out & the second one is the one I saw today, when he touched my breast.
What words do you like to hear during sex? - I don't have an experience, but simple "oh, yes" would do.
What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? - I'm sure I'm not worth it, but an romantic date at home would be so perfect. Like with rose petals all over the bed and wine and chocolate and a guitar.
What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? - Romantic I think.
What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? - "I bought chocolate candies for you but I forgot them  home."
What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? - Cooked, blowjob. 
What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? - I don't care about age if it's about love. But an obvious situation is when the guy is like 23 and the slut is 15. Whoops, I meant girl.
What’s your dirtiest secret? - No secrets.
When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? - When Carl changed his MSN subtitle to "think I'm in love".
When was the last time you told someone you loved them? - On FB to Alari, it was on January the 21th at night.
Who are five boys you find attractive? - Uuummm. Ville, Joosep, Carl, Alari and Brendon.
Who is the last person you hugged? - Some small girl at this conference.
Who was your first kiss with? - Andrei.
Why did your last relationship fail? - Cuz I wanted to spend more time with him.
Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? - Yesss!!!